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4 years, 48 months, 208 weeks, 1461 days, 35064 hours, 2103840 minutes and 126230400seconds, thanks for being there for me, i will never take you for granted, i still scare of losing you, so, thanks for loving me for so long thanks for loving a guy like me for so long thanks for being there for me for so long thanks for everything. im blessed, because you still here im blessed, because you still mine im blessed, because im still yours.   Love and ciao Justin the Treeman

alright, is time for a new post... My life still goes on, yet my heart beat getting slower.. dull, boring and numb life... Yes, my job is challenging fighting against a monster is not so easy, everyday i go to work, imagine myself is going to save the world erm... do i feel a little bit happy on it? yawn, is time to wake up, justin~~ haih, hero is not so easy to be, and money is not so easy to earn... my life full with spidernet, nothing special, same routine, same person around me.. well, at least i work with good people.. not like you, work with jerks, office politic, and earn so less... nenene bubu... life is like a walking shadow~ sound so shakespear, to me, life is like a walking dead, so zombie style you work for money, future but not for your interest, dreams put aside, and reality comes in what else do you left, thanks god, i still have my imagination part to keep me going... Now time is getting near, tomorrow is convocation, receive all the love from eve...

书，我读完了 书，读多了，真的没什么鬼用 而考试呢，只是为了让学生更加痛苦所发明出来的东西 我读完了，也读够了 最近开始做工了，人生也算真正的开始了。 很多感触，但是，忙到我连感触的时间都没有 朋友，少联络了。 但是，心还是挂着的 兄弟，少联络了， 但是，还是肝胆相照 最近，有件很妙的事， 我读完书了，兄弟却当起老师 为他开心的同时，也觉得他为人师表 可惜了被他教的学生 你们一定要坚强， 你们的老师是披着羊皮的狼 哈哈哈哈哈 为你开心， 当个最LL的老师！ 大学这堂课我上完了 起立，行礼，谢谢老师！ 给最兄弟的兄弟 cheers and ciao~

People, this "Jerk Off" is not the "jerk off" you think it just like "switch on, switch off" So, i hope I'm in "Jerk off" mode now... beginning from 2013, I think i really in "Jerk on" mode cause I met lots of jerks First jerk appeared in somewhere February, i lost my wallet Second jerk appeared around May, I almost lost my family Third jerk appeared end of July, haih, what i need to sing is "fly away~~" Fourth jerk appeared from the beginning of my uni life, and i just know he is jerk~ hahaha   Now, I think is a new chapter of my life,  I met some lucky stars First star who always be my side for all my tough time, and i love him Second star who appear in my uni life, best buddy in the world Third star i met is someone who bought me a job Fourth and Fifth star who help me alot when I lost my wallet.. thanks you two... This just to show my appreciation to some people who really help me alot ...

What was done, can't redo What was passed, can't chase What was been, can't repeat What was left, can't stay What was said, can't revoke What was hurt, can't unseen  sometimes, people never think, what they are doing bonds seem vulnerable nowadays  break easily, people tend to look for the sparkling  and forget the joyous of comfort zone but the beauty of sparkling attract their eyes, they forget the one who stay behind, always there for them only when the one was left, they just realize,  and he or she might be gone, forever Cheers and ciao

People tend to speak phony, I don't know why? Sometimes you seriously dislike someone, yet you will not tell the truth in front of him, so you will tend to conduct the conversation into an irony way... Do you? Yes I'm... hohoho~ Do you have a friend like below: Case 1- A "fxxking good looking" guy but keeps telling people that "I'm so ugly... I know I'm ugly.... I think you look better than me... I'm so ugly, that's why nobody loves me... blablabla..." BULLSHIT~~~~[ That's why I tell people that I'm handsome (cause I'm telling the truth.. =P)] So, next time if you meet people like that, please reply him "Ya, you are fugly and please stay out of me and hide yourself in the cave." Case 2- Do you ever meet someone who can sing damn well but he or she tends to say "haih, I think I sing so bad, I feel so embarrassing to sing on stage, I think you sing better than me and blablabla" Die lah you...

Hey it is summer time babe~ For the whole winter i struggle and hibernate for soooooo long, and now, is my time to tell the world I'm VAMPIRE~~ Haih, look at myself in the reflection of water, Vampire is just the way too cool for me... In my little heart, I told to myself, I'm vampire, but there is a species of animal who call me as mosquito... Actually i don't know who is my parent? Maybe there are fighting for our future and keep teaching human to respect us as the posterity of holy blood.  Human, pui, you are just consider food of mine. If we mosquitoes don't need your blood, you will no longer exist anymore... I do look cool today, finally I transform from larvae to adult mosquito... I use my saliva to style my hair and now is my time to fly.... In my gene, there is a sound telling me that "you are different from other mosquitoes" and i believe it... who knows maybe it is my ancestor-vampire lord, who chosen me to be the General of MAD (Mosqu...

Women in love is consider the most stupid creature in the world... Sorry yet no offence... I'm not a kind hearted person and i knew it for a long time,  however when you are already in my heart then i will always be there for you FOREVER and sorry again, im not a rational person,  I always cover my loved one, i don't fucking care you the correct one or the right one,  once you are my loved one, I will always on your back... Now is my time to shout again, to a stupid GIRL who in love with a JERK Yes, i m using "JERK" because he deserved it well... Everybody, let me tell you a story between a stupid pig and Jerk/Bastard/Dicker/Liar or whatever shit... Once upon a time, a very ugly girl who was so innocent and still believe love.. well, she is not beautiful yet she sunny and shining girl even in crowds... her smile melts people's heart and cures my sadness "before"... She never in love with someone before, and she wishes to try...

很久很久，牵了那么久的手，重来没有想放开过 人，轻狂过，骄傲过，堕落过，放纵过 久了，累了，疲倦了，回到家里 看到同样的人，用着一种简单的心情去面对 品尝着淡淡幸福的味道。。。 从一开始的甜蜜期，到平淡期，到了现在的稳定期 我想我不是最好的那一个，但你也不是最好的 反正谁规定了一定要找最好的？ 我玩累了，是上帝让我牵了你的手， 那我干嘛要放开？ 人家问我，为什么爱你？ 爱你没有理由，因为你就是爱 爱上一个你，等于多了一份爱 等于世界有了两个太阳，两份温馨，双倍的快乐。 甜言蜜语，讲多了会腻，所以。。。 我不讲甜言蜜语，因为我怕你糖尿病 我不讲甜言蜜语，因为你说做的比讲的有用 我不讲甜言蜜语，因为有你的生活就够甜了 我不讲甜言蜜语，因为。。。 有你，有甜蜜。。。 love and ciao~

其实，这是给母情节的礼物，可是我到现在才写完。 我不会讲我妈妈是世界上最好的妈妈，对我来说， 她不必降格跟世界比较，因为她就是我的世界。 很多人总说，每天恩恩爱爱，每天都是情人节。 哈哈，那我问你，那你妈妈爸爸的节日就不比情人重要吗？ 母亲节过了，但是我现在才写完，因为情绪一直处于澎湃的感觉。 夜深了，在外国的月亮，并没有比较远。 夜深了，在异乡里·我想念最多的是家人。 爸爸，妈妈，你们在那里好吗？ 我想你们了。你们，会想我吗？ 最近家里发生了一些由我开始的事情 事情过了，但是，没有人比我更感激上苍 谢谢他让我有了一对最恩爱的夫妻为父母 谢谢他让我有了最疼爱孩子的父母 我的心久久无法平复，因为我没想到他们对我的爱会是那么的多 多得让我觉得我的想法很渺小 这次，我感恩了。我感谢有着爱我的家人，爱人和朋友。 真的知足了。 我爱你们 peace and ciao~

05.05.2013, it was historical day created by Malaysia's government. Most of the Malaysian call it as "black out day"... In their heart, democracy is died. During this GE13, it proved to Malaysia citizens that there is no more clean, fair and transparent election. I believe that we don't have much 5 years to wait, but we need to be prepare for the coming election. Therefore throughout GE13 I found there are some reasons why DAP has lose... 1. We don't import voter from "various" contries. For example Bangladesh~~ 2. We don't prepare for the second "black out" magic show. 3. We don't prepare extra ballots 4. We are too justice 5. We are not rich enough to give money like they did 6. We trust democracy 7. SPR are no longer neutral 8. We don't give enough or sufficient electricity when counting votes 9. We don't prepare enough teachers to teach SPR how to count faster and last but not least... the last reason why DAP l...

人活着，顾虑的东西很多很多。从出生开始，但你懂事的时候，你发现你和别人不同，你也没有勇气面对。能做的，是逃避。渐渐地，你长大了，你发现很多东西变得更加重要，但是你还是你，你还是知道你是不被社会所接受的。那时候，一个人可以几成熟？ 可以用来隐藏自己的灵魂。。。 19年来，我把自己的灵魂撕破，埋藏起来，不去面对真正的自己。但是我不快乐，完全的不快乐。有着美好的家庭，朋友，但是我缺少了面对自己的勇气。因为对太多人来说，我是不一样的。而对我所居住的城市来讲，我根本就是个异类，变态，和不要脸甚至对家人来讲我是让他们蒙羞的一个生物。对，当你发现你不配做人的时候，你只能把自己降格爲生物。 19年了，尝试了无数次，失败了无数次。心已伤横累累。但是，我决定面对自己。我重新学会如何笑，因为我承认了自己。当然，我想了很多，我知道面对这些的社会压力是多么的痛苦，是，我选择面对，对自己坦白。因为，我不需要全世界，我只要家人。。。 但是，家人，是个奢侈的名词。因为，连他们也不接受我，那我问你，有谁还要我？没有了。两个姐姐的谩骂，说我让父母痛心，伤心，死心。说我自私自立，不配当家里一份子。说我对不起父母，浪费他们的养育之恩。说我不孝顺，要是妈妈有什么身体不适，一定找我算账。说我不改变，不然不认我这个孩子。。 当你们说这这些话的时候，当我听着这些话的时候，当你们不知道你们在我心里的分量，远远超出了我自己，当你们说的很开心，但是我已经再也承受不住的是时候，当你们抨击我，骂我的时候。谢谢你们。你们让我知道了，我不再重要了。你们让我知道了，你们要的是一个所谓“正常”的家人。谢谢你们，让我知道了我不正常，我不配和你们当家人。。。 你们回收了所有对我的爱和包容，你们忘记了我为你们所做过的一切。让我觉得，我并不是因为爱你们才成为一家人。而是你们需要一个正常的家人。有一个家人骂我到，”他的家庭很幸福，出现了裂痕“我是那个裂痕，我是那个败类。谢谢你们。另一个家人道”父母开心才是最重要的“，那我一点也不重要，我的感受不重要，我的一切不重要。重要的是，一个家庭里，我的地位不及父母，所以，我不重要。。。 不要再骂了，一个20出头的人能有多少能力去接受这样的压力。我接受不到了。我不要你们的骂，我想你们接受我。接受我的不同，接受我的一切。可是，不敬人意。。。我得到的是抨击，谩...

I know you are leaving, to a better place,  a paradise without loneliness, because Grandma was waiting for you, finally you two get along together.. It is a post without beautification because it just for you My beloved Grandpa.. I LOVE YOU wherever you are, you always in my heart.. peace and ciao...

每一个人都有属于自己的故事，回顾一生，想想自己所做的，成就如何，事业如何，家庭如何。就算你站在了世界的顶峰，就算你拥有了全世界，那又如何？到头来，双脚一直，还不是回归土地，十年百载以后，又有几个人记得你活着的痕迹？想想，人类还真的满可悲，有多少人为了自己而付出？很多人，都把时间分给了家庭，一生做牛做马为了还不是让一家人三餐温饱。更可悲的是做了那么多，为家里付出了那么多，却得不到家人的谅解，到头来一场空。 人，是为了什么而活？不要问我，太深奥了。。。我想平平淡淡的过，但是，我选了一条不容易走的路。那又怎样？最后结果是如何？谁懂？假如给你一次机会，让你从头来过，让你有多一次的选择，你还会走现在你走的路吗？算了吧，人还不是就这样，忙忙碌碌，到头来，呼吸停止以前，谁陪在你身边？是家人， 朋友 还是爱人？ 生老病死，没有人能跳脱这条路。火影忍者里的宁次有说过这一句话”人在世界上最公平的一件事就是，每个人都会死“。。听起来颇幼稚，但是，你可以说这句话是错的吗？有些人含着金汤匙出世，有些人出世就夭折，有些出世对父母来将是一个错误，更有些一辈子当孤儿。。。我还不错，算很幸福了，比上不足，比下有余。回顾自己二十多年的青春，人生算是过了四分之一了吧，家庭，健康，学业都还算不错。人生没什么大风大浪可言。这样的人生没什么不好，至少在这二十几年里我学会了惜福和知足。 这几天真的好有感触，不然我一个铁汉子也不会写那么多感性的话。我现在要学的东西是学会接受，学会面对，和学会把握。。。 peace and ciao...

如果世界上能有一种能力是预支你的幸福，你愿意用吗？ 或如果，是把你的幸福用同等条件作为交换，你会用吗？ 幸福，谈何容易？有多少人幸福等当下，同等条件下流着痛苦的眼泪。 看着别人的幸福，或许在他眼里也有着淡淡的哀伤。 我看是很幸福，但是，我愿意以同等生命作为交换， 把一个人待会我身边。 很傻，很蠢，看着他的痛苦，每一针插在他的身上 第几次了，我受不了。。。 我不想失去他，我更不想在我不在的时间看不到他。。。 我不想他受苦，但我不想看到那些针管插在他的身上。。。 小时候，帮我抓徒手蚱蜢的阿公，是英雄。。。 小时候，每次去阿公家最期待的是他泡的milo 小时候，看到白色背心就想到阿公。。。 小时候，新年都是阿公给两个红包。。。 长大了，看阿公就只有在回来batu的时候 长大了，陪阿公的时间就少了。。 长大了，我只能听阿公一遍又一边将他打猎的故事 长大了，阿公是蔡家的定义。。。 我不想看到他受苦，但是我不想他走。。。 上帝，假如能预支幸福， 我愿意。。。 pray and ciao...

别人讲，爱一旦久了，就会退色，变得不再那么鲜艳， 变得不再那么灿烂。。。 人家都说，爱一旦久了，就会少了激情，少了想念， 就算对方不在，感觉一切都没什么。。。 我听说，爱一旦久了，就会变得比较不在乎， 比较看得开，比较能够一个人出去自己看世界。。。 是吗？ 真的是吗？ 对我来说，不是。 我还是他妈的想念9000公里以外的那个人 我还是睡醒了就想到他 我还是看到美丽的风景就会想和他分享 我还是边走边觉得他会喜欢这个喜欢那个 我对他的爱褪色了吗？我承认，有一点。。 我对他的爱少了激情了吗？ 我承认，有一点。。 我对他的爱不在乎了吗？ 一点都没有。。 我对他的想念呢？ 不减反增。。。 我爱他，我想他，我在乎他。。。 Love and ciao...

听说，想念是甜的 想念的时候，空气会变成甜甜的味道 像吃这巧克力，每一口呼吸都是充满着爱的甜味 我想念了，好甜好甜。。。 每一口呼吸都是甜的。。。。。。 听说，想念是苦的 想念的时候，眼泪会变成苦苦的味道 像吃这巧克力，每一口都是浓郁的可可味 苦中带甘，像爱一样。。。 有眼泪，有欢笑。 我想念了，好苦好苦。。。 每一滴眼泪都是苦的。。。。。。 听说，想念是互相的。。。 我知道我想念的时候，在地球另一端的你 一定也想着我 为什么，因为你的想念传到了我的心里 我感觉得到，就算我们离得很远 但是，感觉还是很强烈 好好的想念你，是我每天的功课。 好好的想念我，是你每天必做的习题。。 甜甜的想念，苦苦的想念， 你经历着，我感受着，我们的爱，又在成长了 爱你，不是责任，不是使命，不是必须。。 是因为，你活在我的血液里。。 是你给了我生命，我是你的。。。 Love and Ciao~ 

Everyone have their own mindset, that's why a story might end up with different versions. when citizens shouted "NOOOO" but news released as "YESSS" Maybe a villain in your eyes, is a hero to his child; Maybe a boring guy in front of you, is an interesting guy in her eyes Hence, we can't judge a story, a person, an incident unless you are GOD People like to criticize on other things, but do they really as perfect as God? In an incident, there might be gain and lose... you earn something means you need to pay for the value... I lost my wallet, but I learn how to handle this kind of case next time if others meet the same problem... I may able to go Poland but I do need to rush like hell for lots of things... People tend to see the and jealous on what you have but they don't really care what is the progress for achieving the sweetness When we judge, we will be at your own side.. never look from others' point of view... your son might be ...